February 22, 2011
We within winter
sense only chill and hardness.
One must step outside.
How does one “step outside” of winter? The answer I think is actually across the circle in the haiku from February 8. To step outside of winter, one must step into winter, and make it one’s own. If you want to get past something, you must accept it rather than avoid it, brave it rather than fear it, feel it rather than desensitize yourself.
A personal physical example: I used to have chronic lower back problems that would often leave me unable to walk and recuperating in bed for days with the lingering effects lasting for weeks. If I felt a spell coming on, I would immediately take to my bed or the sofa in hopes of getting around the debilitating pain. I have since realized that because I tried to avoid the problem, it set up shop in my body; because I feared the pain, I prolonged it. Now if I ever feel a twinge in my back, I do just the reverse of what I once did: I take action. I gently stretch to get to know the pain, where it is, what it needs to be satisfied. I feel the pain, accept it, let it have its say, so it can get the attention it needs and be on its way. Because I have changed the way I live and continually practice preventative medicine, I rarely have the back pain, but because I have changed the way I react to the pain when it does occur, the pain no longer lingers.